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sejak tokan dvd aku kena ‘operasi’, maka aku pun dh byk ketinggalan utk watch most movies. biasa pinjam je dari dia, tapi sejak big bos dia dpt tau ada few dvd’s hilang, maka privilege utk pinjam dvd tersebut pun ditarik blk. so aritu aku grak umah member aku utk ritual ‘penansfreran hadisk’. 20gb aku free kan utk copy lagu, video clip, movie, udang dan bermacam2 lagi.

1st movie yg aku layan adalah 300. aku mmg ada niat nk g tgk wyg cite ni, tp xde kaki lak. kang aku tgk sorang2 kat cineleisure, bosan ar pulak. 300 ni cite pasal 300 orang askar sparta menentang penjajah dari parsi yg berjumlah 250,000. mak ai. kalo ikut logik pun, konfem2 kena tapau 300 org sparta tersebut. tapi dibakar oleh semangat utk mempertahankan tanahair dan rakyat jelata dari menjadi hamba abdi kepada parsi tersebut, maka mereka sanggup bergadai harta benda dan yg paling penting skali nyawa, for a noble cause. fight scene dia pun bleh tahan gempak gak, tp lacking in essence. mcm ada benda missing. sama mcm cite yg seangkatan dgn nya seperti troy, kingdom of heaven. aku rasa cite yg paling masyuk adalah braveheart.

so next movie, cite cinta. mak aku siap g tgk kat OU dgn member dia. so, aku pun layan kan aje. ada unsur2 babel sket dlm cite ni, sebab in the end, most of the seperate stories inside it, is intertwined sumhow. ada cinta org tua, cinta muda remaja, cinta seorang kakak kepada adiknya, cinta seorang pasangan suami isteri. mmg bleh relate ar perjalanan hidup seseorang dgn cite cinta ni. tp bg aku, cite ni slow sgt. sambil tgk cite ni, aku siap bleh mandi n shave suma, tp still storyline dia x byk pun advance. stil bleh tangkap.

pan’s labyrinth pun ada layan, tapi aku x paham langsung cite ni. org kata it is in between cite narnia n harry potter. tp x best pun. so nex in the pipeline, adalah saw 3, guardian, n ada 5 lagi mixed movies, tah bila nk layan tah. aku rasa ada kaitan operasi dvd game dgn masa aku utk layan movies. time layan game dulu, mmg xde masa utk layan movie ni. apatah lagi miniseries mcm prison break, heroes etc. lg ar xde masa nk mengadap 1 per 1 episod. last layan sampai abis pun, band of brothers. main game call of duty n medal of honor lagi layan kot dari tgk cite tu. hehe.

jgn pandang blakang n zombi kampung pisang pun tgh main kat pawagam skrang ni. nex is spiderman 3 (sandman), fantastic 4 (silver surfer), transformers (megatron). wah tranfsormers. skrang ni, kat astro ria on weekdays kul 7, diorang tunjuk blk 1st generation punya transformers. aritu sempat aku tgk beberapa episod, n mmg benar, aku stil ingat each n evry episod. siap bleh hafal diorang punya skrip, apatah lagi jln cite. mmg dulu aku rekod evry episod yg kluar. dulu2 suma pakai vcr, tapi sayangnya suma dh kena mamah oleh kulat. so ilang begitu saja. aku plg suka, dinobots n constructicon. dulu mmg gian collect mainan diorang suma ni. berangan mcm dlm cite tu, sambil lakonkan blk adegan2 perang.

so looking forward to enjoying all the movies. n strimix baru je dipasang smula kat umah aku. so bleh ar online blk. n operasi toreng akan dihidupkan semula. kira2 blk, dh stahun lebih aku xde strimix kat umah. nampaknya pasni, tdo lmbt lah aku, asyik dok depan pc je.

-Now I know that I cant make u stay, but where’s ur heart? n I know theres nothing I can say, to change that part. I c u lying next to me, With words I thought I never speak, awake and unafraid, asleep or dead-

most of us must have probably known that this is the weekend for racing in malaysia. wif the coming of the grand prix to sepang international circuit. it is only the 2nd race of the season, and petronas malaysia is the proud organiser for the 2nd leg. all these time, i never really pay attention to any motorsports be it f1, motogp, gt or any exhibition involving vehicles of any kind. partly due to me not a car addict anymore. not like during the time i was driving mini. i think the passion for motorsport has gone wif the wind, after the car was sold off.

so during the fateful sunday, like any sunday, i was lazying around in bed, even around 1130am. that was when, my fren rang me up, and ask me to go out wif him. my 1st reaction was, later in the evening or at nite lah we go out together2. becos i dont really like going out under the hot sun. that was until he mentioned me about the free tickets to the grand prix.

immediately i got out of bed, and took a shower and get dressed for the event. i became really excited n looking forward to my maiden visit to the SIC. i think we hit the road n reach the subang airport toll ~115pm. evryting was smooth sailing, until we reach the exit of klia airport, which was ~40km after the toll. there were cars for as long as the road may take us all the way leading up to the circuit. the last time i went to klia, wif a distance ~70km, it took ~30 minutes. but not on that day. all the jam make us arrive quite late. heck even the walk to the circuit is a 40 minutes journey, since we didnt but any parking stickers.

so all in all we finaly reach the entrance ~330pm, a good 1/2 n hour after the race have kicked off. i dont know wat to expect from the event, but i was immediately taken aback by the noisy environment. even from a distance, we cud hear the engines of the f1 cars roaring. so u can imagine, sitting in the grandstand at ground level, very close proximity to the cars. the decibels created by the combination of the car’s engines n the drafting n the slipstreaming is truly out of this world.

i have never come this close to this much noise pollution. apart from the heavy noise, u can see people from all walks of life, foreigners n locals of different races n faces under 1 roof. they were either all full of passion or merely getting a free ticket like me n just wanna experience wat f1 is really all about.

so in the end, fernando alonso won the grand prix. he truly is a champion, even after switching teams, he remain true to himself. that is the hallmark of a champion. by overcoming all the obstacles in front of them, no matter small or big. we didnt truly enjoy the f1 experience, due to several factors, n hope that if time n god is willing, maybe next year ill make another visit, minus the hiccups.

-for wat ive done, i start again, n wateva pain may come, today this ends, im forgiving wat ive done…-

2007 adalah tahun vista launch kepada khalayak ramai. tapi bg aku, hype vista ni x sehebat time xp launch dulu. mcm promotion x hebat mana pun. suam2 panas je, xde ar meletup sgt vista ni. mmg dia byk function baru, aero, ready-boost ect tapi x tau ar hanya sekadar kosmetik upgrade je ke, atau mmg betul2 bleh maximise capabilities of processing power yg double evry 18 months according to hukum moore.

tahun ni gak, aku berjaya mengangkat intel c2d e6300. aku ni sebnarnya fanboy amd dah lama dah. n benchmark pun mengatakan, amd is more suited towards gaming, while intel is multitasking etc. along dgn prosesor c2d, motherboard pun tukar asrock dual-vsta. bagusnya motherboard ni, sebab bleh pakai ram ddr1 & ddr2, n agp & pcie. so xde ar terasa sgt bila upgrade perlahan-lahan. aku bukan ada ready cash rm3k pun nk upgrade evryting.

pastu tukar skali ar grafik kad kpd 7600gt. cuma monitor 17′, hardisk 40gb, ram 1gb ddr1 je yg blum upgrade lagi. leklu ar, pelan2 kayuh. duit pun kena saving gak sket2 utk future. dh ada duit sket, baru ar angkat lcd 19′, hardisk 250gb sata n ram 2gb ddr2. aku pun bukan nye extreme overclockers sgt pun. overclock ala kadar je, pakai stock cooling je. proc dari 1.86Ghz kepada 2.1Ghz, tu pun sebab motherboard aku lepas 300fsb dh x brapa stable. ada yg bleh oc sampai 500+fsb, ~3.5Ghz+. tapi kena make sure procesor punya batch bagus, motherboard gempak, power suply stable true power n beberapa setting kat bios yg kena tweak.

my 1st impression xde ar terasa sgt oomph nye, bila upgrade. almost the same. tapi bila run benchmark (sisoft, 3dmark), rasa stim lak tgk high score. tapi real life nye situation, xde experience sgt pun. n since pc ni mostly utk gaming, aku pun x brapa ‘test n stress’ lagi capability rig baru aku ni. since upgrade, Supreme Commander ada aku test. tapi xde ar stim sgt pun. maybe kena try game2 FPS dulu kot.

next game, stalker: shadow of chernobyl, review rating gempak, FPS + elemen RPG sket (dari segi inventory je, xde experience points pun). grafik pun cun gile. tapi dgn setup aku, medium setting je dpt. kalo nak high setting kena turun jd 800×600. tupun lagging masih ada. maybe 1gb ram x cukup. diorang cakap game ni punyalah cuak, game FEAR (Alma) pun kena sayur. tp aku x sampai lg ar part2 cuak tu. paling cuak pun, bila nite time, n tengah jalan2 kat utan, ada anjing ke mutan dtg serang. dh ar flashlight nmpk beberapa meter je. hanya dgr ada monster tgh kejar kita. skrang tgh kat level dlm sewer, lampu gelap gile, flashlight takut nk on, sebab enemy akan nmpk. tensennya……

tapi apa2 hal pun, the next level of gaming adalah bila game fully embrace dx10 + driver fully functional + dx10 nye grafik kad sama2 kluar di pasaran. so far grafik kad je dh kuar. driver n game on the way. n since aku fanboy nvidia, 8800gts adalah yg paling murah, ~1200 je. haha. 1200 je. tupun, ati blum kluar lagi diorang nye r60 architecture. tapi aku stil setia kot kat nvidia. "the way its meant to be played". daripada previu game2 dx10 seperti Crysis & Alan Wake, memang meleleh ar grafik dia. Gears of War kat Xbox360 pun, game paling lawa aku rasa dlm dunia game skrang ni, kena titik 18 tiang. by that time, vista + game fully support dx10, quad core dgn 45nm architecture, the future of gaming mmg dinantikan. ditambah dgn HDTV + bluray apa suma, x dpt aku nk bayangkan future nanti camana.

kalo nk cope dgn perkembangan pc ni, duit kena byk abis ar. kalo x, baik angkat game konsol je. evry 5 years baru upgrade. tu pun market value stil tinggi. amek contoh, PS2, skrang brand new ~600, 2nd hand ~400. 2-3 tahun lepas, rege dia ~1000. so still ada value ar. kalo pc, 2-3 tahun lepas beli ~3000, skrang ni value jatuh ke ~500 je kot. s

o aku dh tekad, nk setia kepada pc untuk beberapa tahun akan datang, biar ar evry 1 or 2 years kena upgrade pun. cheers to intel + nvidia. making me burn my money for you guys. XD

-sepenuhnya aku ingin memelukmu, mendakap penuh harapan, untuk mencintaimu; setulusnya aku, akan terus menunggu, menanti sebuah jawaban untuk memilikmu-

all of the above have more or less the same meaning. ada org percaya benda2 ni, ada org x percaya, ada org 50-50 so terpulanglah kepada invidivu masing2 tersebut. ada org bleh predict future, ada org bleh tau apa akan jadi lepas ni, ada org bleh teka dgn tepat arini hujan ke x. some of them we can ‘know’ thru experience, ada org thru intuition, especially seorang mak boleh agak anak dia sihat ke tgh dlm masalah ke dan sebagainya. have u ever had the sensation, especially when going to a new place, that it feels like u have been there before. new scenery tends to have among the greatest sense of dejavu. rasa mcm penah ku lihat, tapi di mana ya? new faces also adds to this mystery, when u can ’sense’ that u have met this particular person before, but in truth, this is the first u ever met that person. aku rasa semuanya berasal dari dlm mimpi, inside the subconscious mind. apabila kita tidur, sumtimes otak kita separa sedar, especially before we get to the stage of deep sleep. that is when we start to imagining things, or get a hint from sumwhere about the things of the future. tapi orang kata, mimpi adalah mainan syaitan, so x tau ar whether all those ‘visions’ during our sleep can be interpreted as good or bad. dulu2, mmg aku slalu ada sense of dejavu. certain actions, certain places tends to trigger this unexplained event. apa yg kita hadapi at that point of time, memang sebijik dengan apa yg pernah kita lalui satu ketika dahulu (maybe thru our dreams). yang paling ketara ada 2, bila aku sampai ke tempat2 baru, dia punya position of things (pokok, scenery, kereta, matahari etc.), memang macam aku pernah pergi tempat ni. next is when doing certain things, the things im doing, and the end result is exactly as what i had dreamt before. n jumaat mlm sabtu lepas, it struck again. i have been having visions that i will be involved in a car accident while im driving. the car will be coming from sideways, ramming my car at the passenger side, cutting my path, so that means aku x bersalah, sebab jalan tu adalah jalan aku. aku rasa ada dekat sbulan lebih, aku imagine benda ni almost everyday especially when im driving. and how true it was when it happen that fateful nite. tapi kali ni, kete tu langgar from the driver’s side. tempat kejadian, deret maybank uptown lama, betul2 depan restoran dharoos. masa kejadian, kul 1+ pagi. nasib gak dia sempat brek, n aku sempat bunyikan hon n brek at the same time. masing2 bunyi tayar dh memekak dh. haha. yg aku ingat dia pakai kete rexton. aku tgh bwk agak slow gak ar, sebab kiri kanan jalan ada byk kete parking n jalan mmg agak sempit. then bila sampai depan kedai mamak tu, ada 1 jalan utk kete buat u-turn. tiba2 ada ternampak kete besar dh main kluar je. mmg split second decision, aku tekan hon, tekan brek. mula2 driver tu x pandang pun kat arah aku, dia claim dia x nmpk lampu kete aku. aku mmg sempat usha muka dia, masa dia ‘kiss’ kete aku. his front end langgar body depan kat tayar kanan kete aku. so dua2 pun turun ar kete, aku tgk, cat tekopek sket, tapi xde ar kemek ke apa ke. ah beng tu pun turun, umur ada dlm 30’s mintak maaf kat aku. ’sori ar, saya takde nampak u punya lampu kereta, ada rosak ke’? aku mention kat dia, sket je ni, xde hal ar. then dia ckp, setel ke? aku pun malas nk pk panjang, setel je ar. masa dia nk cabut, dia mintak maaf lagi. aku pun x sampai hati nak cakap lebih2, sebab dia mengaku dia salah n dia pun dh mintak maaf n xde ar teruk sgt perlanggaran tersebut. so, kira setel je ar. well, it cud have been worse, so wat the heck. bersyukur je ar. adakah aku ada buat salah apa2 pada mlm kejadian tersebut? kenapa mlm tersebut? adakah sebab x test pakai baju melayu yg luqman tempah, padahal janji nk dtg lepak umah dia mlm tu? adakah kerana bengang dgn ed, kata nak turun saji kul 1030, tapi last2 jumpa kat sri chai kul 1215. adakah kerana dgn memakan roti john kat sri chai sehingga mengantuk n x pergi bermain snuker dgn budak2, sehingga mengecewakan mereka sehingga mereka bengang kat aku puncanya? entahlah. evryting happen for a reason. then after that it hits me, betul ar apa aku imagine selama ni. eksiden side impact. cuma beza nya, kena langgar dekat driver’s side. so mmg ada kene sket ar dgn apa yg aku mimpikan slama ini. not 100% accurate, tapi betul gak ar. so how? korang percaya ke x dejavu apa suma ni? pasni, aku mintak dijauhkan ar dari pikir benda2 x elok. amin… -tell me the reality is better than the dream, but i found the hard way, nothing is wat it seems-

amacam? dah kenyang makan limau? aku x sentuh langsung sbijik pun limau, walaupun ‘bersepah-sepah’ kat umah, kat ofis. entah, sebab aku mmg x brapa suka kat limau ke oren ke. fresh oren je kot badan aku bleh terima. anyway, nak wish Slamat Tahun Baru Cina kat suma org cina, padahal aku bukan ada ramai pun kawan cina. member muka chinese look tapi x reti cakap cina, ‘banana’ ada ar.

benda pertama aku prasan tentang CNY ni adalah, jalan kat area PJ/KL ni x jem langsung. kul brapa pun, x kisah. pagi ke tengahari ke petang ke malam ke, sama je. jalan lengang semacam. kalau tiap2 hari mcm ni, mmg stres level rakyat mesia berkurangan 50%. asal lah, cuti 4 hari je ofis aku. tapi ada hikmah gak cuti skejap je, sebab dh x tau apa nk wat kat umah. layan dvd je ar. time cuti camni ar, tv mula tunjuk cite macam2. spiderman 2 ar, teminator 3 ar, kungfu hustle, fearless, tapi sayang, suma dh penah tgk, so nk tgk blk kat tv, rasa malas je.

on average, layan sampai 2 dvd sehari. borat, stormbreaker, blood diamond, babel, chronicles of ridick, united 93. then ahad mlm layan gos rider kat cineleisure. hampeh tul, mostly cite aku layan, x brapa best except for united 93. mmg touching weh. cite camana, penumpang flait United Airlines 93 berjaya ‘menggagalkan’ usaha pengganas at the cost of their own lives. well, kalo ko dah tau nak mati, better mati yg berbaloi ar kot. fight to the end. alang2 menyeluk pekasam, biar sampai ke pangkal lengan. we may never know wat actually happen on board, or whether the terrorist were ‘real’, but the only truth is that, Islam’s image has taken a battering by the international community.

yg lain2 cite mcm apa tah. borat, cite bodoh gile. stormbreaker cite kanak2 berangan nak jadi james bond. blood diamond, ganas semacam la pulak, budak2 dah diajar membunuh pakai AK. babel, slow nak mampus jalan cite dia, by the end, ko nye otak pun dh malas nak pk blk, apa yg jadi at the start of the movie. nak flashback pun dh malas. chronicles of ridick, aku layan pun sebab baru last month layan game dia. walaupun made in 2004, tapi game dia masyuk gile. mmg macho gile ar ridick.

tapi paling mengecewakan aku rasa, gos rider, tupun sebab tgk wayang kot. kalo takat pinjam dvd kawan2, xde ar kecewa sgt. gos rider ni kategori superhero yg ganas sepatutnya. aku pun x brapa ingat jalan cite komik dia, tapi abang aku ada ar beli komik dia zaman2 early 90’s dulu. well i went there, not expecting a good storyline, but at least bagi ar fight scene dia ‘panjang’ sket. ni 2-3 minit gaduh, dh menang. lawan super villain dia pun, brapa minit je dh kawtim. haha. apa tah. tapi setahu aku blackheart ada byk lagi kuasa2 dia yg dia x tonjolkan dlm movie.

lagi ada trailer utk spiderman 3, lawan sandman; fantastic four, lawan silver surfer; transformers, autobots lawan decepticon je ar kot. tapi yg paling xleh handle, iklan digi tu. memang kene ar dgn budaya rakyat mesia. aku rasa, dlm wayang je kot, kuar iklan tu, sebab mmg iklan specifically utk wayang je. ‘gua taikor’. hahahahaa…

so 4 hari cuti, melepak je ar. rabu dh kena keje blk. MU pun dah stat dia punya european adventure again. bermula lah episod tdo kul 5 pasni. yg paling x best cuti ni, game pc xde. usha dgmall, kedai jual game dvd suma dh tutup. mcm ada operasi pun bleh jadi gak. x sabar nak main Supreme Commander ni. spiritual successor to Total Annihilation, game yg aku layan masa skolah menengah dulu. tangan pun gatal nak upgrade pc kepada core 2 duo, ~1.5k dh bleh dapat c2d e4300, mobo 965, ram ddr2 1 gig, 7600gt, dgn casing + psu suma. tapi leklu ar, selagi pc ni bleh main latest games, rasa mcm buang duit lak upgrade. tunggu vista fully operational baru best kot upgrade.

so in the end, how i wish evry week is CNY. x tau ar dpt angpow brapa byk bila naik keje ni. kalo ada, ok lah, xde pun x mati nye. dan yg x brapa best nye, CNY ni, kedai byk tutup. steven uptown or as a matter of fact, suma western food kat uptown tutup. so kena tungu ar next wiken utk merasa blk kenikmatan makan di uptown ni.

-i watched u change into a fly, i look away u r fine, i watched a change in u, its like u never had wings, now u feel so alive, i took u home, set u on the glass, i pull off ur wings, then i lie-

once upon a time, there lived jack & jill in a land far, far away. the story goes that, jack first got to know jill during their study days. they were not exactly close during that time, due to a number of reasons. its not that jack didnt notice jill at that point of time, but maybe jack was pre-occupied with his studies or maybe jack was smitten with some other girl. jill was also with someone else. so their meeting was rather limited.

well, thats all in the past now. fate has brought both of them together. its funny how fate plays a part in it. when it seems that all of jack’s hope is lost, comes along jill in the picture. then jack’s life begins to pick up again. jack has found a new purpose in life, new meaning to each day. jack cant really describe when he begins to have feelings for jill, but does it matter anyway? it could be due to jill’s sincerity, for being there during jack’s time of loneliness. to fill the empty space which have long being left void.

maybe words cant describe how jack is falling head over heels over jill. is there anything to describe and measure something which is subjective, such as friendship and/or love? theres a malay proverb which goes, "tak kenal maka tak cinta". maybe before this jack didnt know who jill really was, but after awhile, jack can definitely ’see’ for what jill is worth. and like ronan keating’s famous lyric which goes, ‘You said it best, when you say nothing at all’. its more than words can describe.

or maybe jack doesnt really know how or what he feels for jill at the moment. maybe jack is as confused as jill. but is it wrong? to like jill for no specific reason? to take care of jill more than what friends are meant to be? theres a big question mark there on jack’s real intention in all this, and frankly speaking, jack doesnt know how to explain it. could it be real, or just a feeling that will pass on with time?

it may seem as too sudden since jack just got to know jill again after a lapse of a few years. even jill was taken by surprise after jack pour his feelings to her. jill thought it was just some kind of a prank. jack cant blame jill for it. after all, how can jack taken a liking for jill, when they have never even share a proper conversation face to face?

we dont know what the future holds for us. thats why our gift to each other is the ‘present’. we only have the present. we only have now and today. but all jack can promise to jill is to take care of jill while he’s still alive. to share the ups and downs with jill. but until to what extent, who knows. up until the pedestal of marriage? until they have their own children and grandchildren? in footballing terms; ‘on loan with a view of a permanent move with a fee’.

changes have to be made, and sacrifices too. the issue of distance is a challenge. provided theres a give n take between them, a win-win situation can be drawn out with proper planning. the issue of having enough money to actually make things work is being finalised. all jack asks is for 2 years.

so in the end, the choices we make today will have an impact on the life we lead tomorrow. jack’s mind is made up for the short-term. wonder how jill will react to all of this…

-why, it’s ok, to fall in love again? it’s all we have to live, whenever i’m unseen, i blame it on myself-

21/1/07, Bukit Jalil GOlf & Country Club, 7.30pm. i will mark this date down in my life, because its the 1st time i attended a chinese wedding. a colleague of mine, just got married n she invited me n other colleagues to attend her wedding reception that nite. so in all, there were 1 table representing the company.

i had no expectations other than to go there to have a dinner and get back to catch the MU-Arsenal match at 12 midnite. wat a pleasant surprise i had, when i was there. to start it off, the journey there was very troublesome due to the very heavy rain, plus the venue was also near the Bukit Jalil Stadium where the Final Anugerah Juara Lagu took place. so it took some time for me to get there.

it was supposed to start at 8am, but like my fren said, no chinese wedding ever start on time. reminds me of the infamous ‘janji melayu’. i think im the only malay and there was another indian couple, then the rest all chinese. i also do not know the correct procedure for the giving of ang pow. only after observing other people, that i know wat to do. then while dinner was waiting to be served, the MC took to the stage to introduce evrybody to the married couple. my colleague also took to the stage to give a speech on behalf of the bride.

dinner was a 7-course set, served with many type of food. by the 3rd serving, i was laid back already due to being so full. remember next time to skip lunch before attending a chinese wedding. ;p

then came the part where the couple go around each table to ‘yam seng’ wif evryone. i learned lotsa new things that day. but i still phailed in using the chopstick, so had to resort to using fork n spoon. i also phailed in initiating or entering into a conversation, mainly due to me not speaking chinese. but sumtimes i feel like i understand wat they were saying, by their intonation, their body language, n i do feel the urge to enter into that conversation, but wat to do. only after they speak english or malay, did i showed a positive response.

i think all the misconceptions that we have of each races, is due to us not understanding each other. once we get to know each other, n we respect each other customs, cultures, religion then i think we all can live forever happy ever after. peace…

-if i fall along the way, pick me up n dust me off n if i get too tired to make it, be my breath so i can walk-

with an ever changing world staring at us, knowledge is becoming a very important part in our life. there’s also a famous saying which goes, "knowledge is king". how very true it is. knowledge empowers a person, a leader, a population, a nation, evrybody to do better in their life, to make the world a better place with new technology in place.

education never really stops until the day that we die. do u still remember the days, when we all learn to eat? learn to crawl? learn to ‘pak tor’? i guess evrybody should be going thru the same phase, while others may not be so fortunate. it is a lifelong journey. we will make mistakes along the way, hearts will be broken, pain n suffering too. but all is not lost. there is always the light at the end of the tunnel.

higher education means tertiary education or advance stage of education, which is not compulsory, in malaysia anyways. it starts from the period which we finish our secondary education or secondary school. college or university is the institution of higher learning for tertiary education. it ranges from a simple certificate, up to diploma and bachelors degree and further until masters or a phd. for higher education, mostly it is attended by young adults in their 20’s, but there are also mature students, who have entered the working force, but still further their studies for many reasons. it could be for personal achievement when someone gains the title ‘dr’ or ‘professor’, or maybe their job requires the scroll for them to get promoted.

in malaysia, greater emphasis has been given for higher education since the launching of e-economy, e-government, e-this, e-that, where there are no limits in doing transaction or business. everything is embracing the way of paperless culture. everything is inside the computers and servers all across the globe which were interlinked to each other. with the advent of the world wide web, resources can be found at the click of the mouse, provided you know where and how to search for it.

ever since the term ‘human capital’ was mooted and widely used by our PM, education is given far greater importance. alliance was made with other nations. for example, cuba which may seems to be a communist and a very unstable country, but they have 1 of the best facilities and r&d in medicine in the world. research is the keyword in becoming successful. when investment comes pouring in for r&d, new products can be launched and new technologies can be used. hybrid cars, bio-fuel, renewable energy source, vaccine, dna mapping, cloning are just some of the on-going research. and once an accomplishment is made in the respective field, it will bring both wealth and popularity to whoever makes the breakthrough. think of viagra and what it does to pfizer.

but then, all this comes at a heavy price for those who misuses it. wars will be waged, in the name of ‘testing’ their new so-called more powerful weapons. biological weapons or unconvetional warfare is used, even more deadlier than conventional guns and missiles, where the effect can be seen in the next generations of humans. hackers can spread virus a lot more faster, taking advantage of the ‘link-up’ of the worlds computers. moral decisions would also have to be made. no more baby born with defects, ’superhuman’ beings with no flaws, cloning oneself so that ‘he’ may never dies. its a scary thought by the looks of it.

back home, malaysia is trying its best to become an education hub in the asia pacific region, if not the world. with more universities and colleges being built and ‘outside’ help with foreign expertise being brought in, the reputation of higher education in malaysia is slowly gaining popularity. most universities and colleges have a tie-up with established and well-known universities abroad. study loans are everywhere, to help people to further their studies. incentives are also given in the form of tax relief for those who wishes to take up tertiary education. so basically, there’s not much restriction for anybody to enter colleges or universities. its just a choice of individual preference whether they want it or not.

-desperate i will crawl, waiting for so long, no love, there is no love, die for anyone, what have i become???-

"trying to get that great big feel of hope for a destination". well it was actually a song by the 4 non blondes, so copyright reserved to them. but i think the lyrics to the song does seem to connect wif me. my birthday was on the 8/12, last friday. n now im a quarter centuries old. n until now i dont have a clear purpose of life. even after all this while.

well, its in the december month, that my dad n my mother was also born. my dad on the 2nd, and my mom on the 9th. so in 1 week, the 3 of us, celebrated our birthdays. no fancy celebration or anyting, but we did have a yamcha session among us families on my dad’s birthday last week. n on my my mom’s birthday, her sisters treat her our to lunch and bought her a birthday cake.

my day as a 25 years old man(?), started well. there were wishes by frens, but i guess i have to thank friendster for the reminder on evry1’s birthday. thats how easy for us to know each others birthday. my mom, my dad, my brother they all wished me. how i love u guys. since my birthday falls on a working friday, so no choice but to go to work. at work, not many people knew bout my birthday, except for a few of my YM buddies.

so then at nite, at 10.20pm we go out n watch cicak-man at cineleisure the curve. starring saiful apek, yusry kru and fasha sandha. the last malay movie that i watch was, diva popular during raya in JB. n i must say, wat a great movie it was by yusry. it was very funny, especially if saiful apek was in it, n the ‘twins’ played by adlin aman ramlie n ac mizal supported by aznil nawawi; profesor klon n m rajoli. after the show, we hang out at uptown at kabeer palace.

at uptown, did it hit me how old i am. i met up wif my primary school n secondary school buddies, n the main topic is about wat our other former school mates were doing wif their lives. wat r they doing? r they married? how many kids they have etc. n i must admit that, i have a poor memory when remembering names or persons in my past. but i think if i saw them person, i can still recognise their faces. so it was a walk down memory lane that nite. talking bout our primary n secondary school lives, what we were doing as a kid last time n also about our former teachers.

1 thing im glad is that, i have a job, which i look forward to evry weekday, n frens n families to hang out wif evry weekends. n the EPL matches n the CL matches, where MU is doing very well at the moment. n the music in my life. i think if u take out any 1 of it from my life, i would feel soulless. the only missing thing from the puzzle rite now, is a steady gf…

-anna molly, anna molly, anna molly…-

Mula2, aku xnak tulis, tapi telah terpanggil lak utk tulis sket mengenai pengalaman Syawal 1427. Aku rasa, on average wiken, ada 3-5 open house kena fulfil ditambah 1 wedding n 2 majlis pertunangan. Ni lepas raya pun, wiken nye schedule full dgn open hse post-raya, wedding etc, selebret besday aku, mak dgn ayah yg berlangsung dlm masa sminggu. N wat a fitting finale to raya open hse, Jaafar Onn telah menjemput kitorang skeluarga g open hse umah dia Isnin kul 8.

Masuk2 je, dh tenampak Azwan Ali dgn spek besar nye. Dia dok dgn Maya, artis pompuan pendek2 tu. Jaafar mcm biasa, dgn gaya peramah nye. Pastu ada geng2 nyah, dok seblah aku. haha. "nyah, u ni…..", geli weh aku dgr diorang berbicara. siap pakai skirt belah2 lagi weh. pastu ada lagi, orang2 astro/rtm yg aku x brapa kenal, tapi mcm penah nmpk dlm tv. aku pun penah gak masuk tv, rancangan muzik2 masa kecik2 dulu. azwan ali gak ar hos time tu rasanya. Uncle Jaafar ni, mmg pandai masak. ada 3 menu umah dia, kuey teow, nasik lemak n nasik briyani. pastu ada murtabak lagi.

Sabtu aritu lak, aku wat mini open hse. Buat macaroni goreng pedas. Sedap gak, walaupun aku x brapa gemar mkn benda2 ni. Saja nak bagi dak2 tgk umah baru aku. Pastu bleh lak diorang bantai tdo umah aku, mentang2 ujan nye pasal. Baru korang tau, nikmat tdo kat umah aku. Tu blum lentok kat atas katil queen size aku lagi tu. Lagi ar x bgn rasanya korang nanti. Pastu g umah juani kat bangi, aku ada buat lawak ke ha time nak duduk lepas amek makanan tu??? Pastu blk je dr umah juani, baru ingat nk tdo, grak umah mak lang lak. Dia ni mmg jarang wat open hse kecik, biasa jemput ramai2. Yg peliknya, kalo dia wat majlis, mesti slalu nak ujan. Badi ke rezeki ke, entah ar.

So, xyah tanya ar wiken seblum2 tu. Mmg, open hse memanjang kalo wiken. Nasib baik, raya sbulan je, kalo raya stahun, tiap2 minggu makan besar, posa stahun pun x guna ar jawabnya. Ni pun, posa sbulan, baru raya ke 2/3 dah naik balik berat badan posa sbulan aritu. So sehingga, ada benda lain nak cite, selain dari makan, nanti aku bukak cite. org mlayu ni mmg tekenal dgn makan je keje dia. xpe ar, tu menunjukkan rezeki kita murah. smoga diberkati tuhan.

-it has to stat sumwhere, it has to stat sumtime, wat better place than here, wat better time than now-